I went on a cruise as a teenager with my family, and I gotta say, I enjoyed it. Even though I was fat, felt uncomfortable at the pool, and sweat a lot throughout the Caribbean, I enjoyed it. I love traveling and being in new places. I love to relax and saunter. I love being out on the ocean, floating along. I've always loved big boats. My partner really wants to go on one, and I'd love to see the Mediterranean, or float on up to Alaska, or hopscotch the Hawaiian islands.
I'd like to go cruising again, but I want to enjoy it for every little thing its worth. I want to sit by the pool or sun myself on the top deck. I want to feel like I could walk around shirtless and not gross anyone out. I want to look great in my suit at the formal dinner. And since my partner really wants to go on a gay cruise, the pressure to fit in feels all the more higher -- I want to be able to measure up to some decent standard of fitness. I want to maximize the experience of being on a cruise, and not feel a lick of self-doubt.
So as I lose weight, I'm going to seriously start planning a cruise. It doesn't matter to where or the gay/straight ratio. I'd love to bring along some friends and really have a great time, out in the sun, without a care in the world - and far away from Blackberry coverage. It'll happen. Not this summer, but probably next!
Updated April 20, 2008
