Goals And Rewards
So in a year or so I'll be x pounds lighter. Great. Then what? I don't just want to be thin for the sake of being thinner. There's a litany of things I stop myself from doing or enjoying or simply cannot do because I'm fat. And when I'm thin, I'm going to indulge myself in goals and rewards - like this growing list ...
I have a closet and a dresser full of "goal" clothes. They are shirts and such I've held onto in the hope of someday fitting into them. A couple in particular are ones I used to fit into, but can't. Goal #1 is getting back into them. Read more
Our apartment has the the most fortunate view ever. Straight out we see the city skyline and the river. Straight down - the building pool, and all the eye-candy sunbathing delight. And every weekend I wish I could be one of those people ... and not be the freakish fat guy who really shouldn't be sunbathing. You know the type. It's me. Read more
I love water. I love being on the water, in the water, under the water. I've always had a fascination with the ocean and waterways and all the life underneath, as well as the peacefulness of floating out in the middle of it all. One activity I've always wanted to try was kayaking. Read more
My partner and I have very few pictures of ourselves together. A lot of that is because we forget to take a camera with us to places. But a bigger reason is that I hate to be on camera. I even get angry when people insist on taking photos of me. And I want that to change. Read more
I love to dress up. Even wearing my enormous, voluminous fat-man suit, I feel good wearing it. I like to look nice and put the right amount of effort in to look professional. I want a closet of nice suits I can wear to any event, or just on a normal Tuesday. I want the shirts and ties to go with them, and the shoes and belt to match. Read more
We have two tennis court complexes on the island where we live - including one right outside our building's front door. My partner loved to play growing up and now regularly pipes up that he'd like to play again someday, and I would like to play with him. Read more
I'd like to go cruising again, but I want to enjoy it for every little thing its worth. I want to sit by the pool or sun myself on the top deck. I want to feel like I could walk around shirtless and not gross anyone out. I want to look great in my suit at the formal dinner. Read more
I've always enjoyed tattoos, and part of me has always wanted one. I've always doubted I would ever actually get one, though. To really show off a tattoo, the canvas has to look nice too. I don't know what I would get tattooed but I have a few ideas. Read more
It's like a rite of passage for crazy young collegians to throw caution to the wind, live in the moment, and leave their clothes behind in a fit of silly interpersonal freedom. I've never really felt free enough to tap into this spirit - but some day, I hope to. Read more
I never even considered learning how to surf before starting this journey. I figured I could never fit in the wetsuit and I fell off the 6-inch balance beam at school. But that's not a reason not to try. And when I'm fit, I want to be out there riding the waves. Read more
